Saturday, August 31, 2013

Facts in fiction :)

A little about me
Read if you're bored or curious!
Or just paste the questions in your blogger, and start answering for yourself :)

1. Most comforting place, smell, sound and memory?
Place.... by the beach, the sunrise... or by a river...I guess in not so crowded places near large water bodies
Smell... milk and mum
Memory....Hot chocolate, or was it cold? Heavy rain, sitting in 2 arm chairs in the verandah, having a long talk with mum about God knows what. 

2. Your ambitions as a child and your ambitions now
As a child: to become a truck driver
Now: To become a famous author, singer, poet, lyricist, travel blogger...photographer

3. Biggest fear

4. Qualities you would like in a partner (if you would like one)
Trustworthy, patient and a really good sense of humour

5. Traits you couldn’t put up with in a partner (if you would like one)
Lying and not giving importance to the relationship

6. What is the worst thing you have done to another person? (Let them down, lied, faked love etc)
Ignored someone. 

7. What are your worst traits and features?
Attention seeker. Dominant. Easily bored.

8. What are your best traits and features?
I don't give up on people I care about (It doesn't feel like the best thing right now, but I think/ hope it stays)

9. How would you explain your idea of ‘true love’?
Wanting to be anyone for that person. Being able to completely be yourself with that person. Someone you automatically think about first when something good or bad happens. Someone who's presence you can feel. Someone, who, you automatically look for in a crowd. Someone you miss even before they leave. Someone, who... just through memories makes you smile/ laugh/ cry.

10. The biggest mistake you’ve made.
A promise a very long time ago.

11. Are you rational or more emotional?
Emotional 70%

12. Do you think you’re very conscious of the feelings of others or more self oriented?
Self oriented..60%

13. Greatest achievement personally.
If I had already achieved it, life would have become boring

14. If you struggle to sleep at night, what do you do to try and soothe yourself to sleep?
Rewrite endings of stories 

15. What irritates you most about society?
Tolerance to dirt and messiness (mine included)

16. When you compliment someone, what do you tend to focus on? (Looks, intelligence, personality…)
Whatever stands out in that person. A compliment is about them :)

17. Think of your oldest friend. If you met them now do you think you would still become friends?
Without a doubt

18. Something you love to do, but feel guilty about after/during?
Eating out. Junk food. Texting some people. Whiling away time.

19. Would you like children in the future. If so why?
Mmmmm......  :)

50 little things

1.How many pets do you own? 
One. Rock. I think he might have died a while ago.

2. What’s your least favorite season? 
Winter, when it doesn't rain

3. Do you prefer to text or call? 
Depends on the person. 
I mostly just prefer face to face conversations

4. Morning or night?
Night. Midnight.

5. Do you like tacos?
Not so much.

6. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

7. What’s your favorite desert?
Fried ice cream

8. Do you enjoy walks?
Love it. :)

9. Are you a frequent user of Facebook?
Unfortunately, yes.
Do I post everything about my life? No

10. Do you watch animated shows still?
More than many people. A lot less than I used to.

11. Can you roll your tongue?

12. What’s your “lucky” number?

13. Are you scared of anything?
Not knowing why. 
Being walked away from.

14. Big mac or big whopper?
Big Whopper

15. Do you like to play board games?
A little too much :P

16. Are you fond of romantic novels?
I even write them sometimes :P

17. Fruitloops or cocopops?

18. Would you eat a live spider for one million dollars?
If it's small, bring it on baby!

19. Are you a heavy drinker?
I can hold my drink though ;)

20. Would you forgive someone for cheating?
I'm not sure.
I'm starting to wonder (be afraid) that I just might.

21. Are you superstitious?

22. Have you seen A Clockwork Orange?
No. Whazzit?

23. Do you like to read?
Yes .... its a need. Which has its seasons.

24. Are you easily distressed?
But when I am :/

25. Do you believe in aliens?
Maybe.... other beings in other planets...hmmmm

26. If you were the last person alive besides one other person you get to chose, who would it be?
Logically, it makes sense for it to be a man right?
But I'd still pick my sister :)

27. Dogs or cats?
But if I HAVE to pick, cats.

28. Are you a grumpy person?

29. What’s something you hate?
Lies. Being left out of a secret.

30. Are you a worry wart?
A teensie little bit.

31. Do you like having your picture taken?
Sometimes, when I feel I look good :)

32. Do you like cotton candy?
When I'm in the mood for sweet stuff.

33. Would you ever use a dating site?
Don't think I'm the type.
Though I might try one out of curiosity.

34. Do you believe in ghosts?

35. Rap or pop?

36. What’s the weirdest flavor of ice cream you’ve tried?
Mint with something (*Shudder*)

37. Do you like math?
I like formulae.

38. Are you the type of person to laugh at others misfortune?
Yes, but I laugh at mine too.

39. Love or lust?

40. Do you remember lyrics easily? 
Of songs I like...or those that get stuck in my head.

41. What was/is your favorite school subject?  
I think I might have been a well hidden geek

42: Do you like tattoos? 

43. Are you the type of person to lie? 
Sometimes.... for work?

44. Do you eat porridge for breakfast? 
Ugh no

45. What music are you listening to right now?
Silence of the wind :) 

46. Are you allergic to anything?
Metal...dust... the some types of artificial wood in tables...

47. Do you like Lady Gaga? 
Just her speaking accent

48. What about Nick Minaj?
Who dat?.

49. Do you like rainy days? 
More than a bowl of ice cream :)

50. Last question, do you like pie?
Apple pie? Yesh ! ;)

Sunday, August 18, 2013

I could hear your heartbeat

Before... when I heard the word heartbeat, I imagined something like this:

DUK dukk DUK dukk DUK dukk DUK dukk DUK dukk DUK dukk
Along with this auditory imagination, that glowy like that jumped up, then fell a little below the median then continued on the flat for a while before jumping again, also accompanied- almost always.

We've all heard the heartbeat thousands of times. When hugging someone close, or at least versions of it - in songs, in medical dramas, in thrillers, in cop dramas... various sources. And as someone who watches plenty of most of the above, I assumed that I knew the beating heart very well.
I was a student of biology after all; we were taught the process of the heart beat in detail!

None of this years of assumed awareness, nothing prepared me for how I'd feel when I actually heard a real heartbeat.

Not long ago, a cousin of mine, who so happens to be a student of medicine, happened to have his stethoscope in his back. Looking at my excited face, he urged me to try it out.
I first tried to listen to my sister's heartbeat. Being a novice, I heard nothing. Nothing apart from my sister shrieking in her most dramatic tone; "You're saying I don't have a heart? Oh noooooooooooo!"
My cousin, took the chest piece of the stethoscope and placed it on his own chest.

In word, it was amazing!

In many; It was an organ... amidst gushing blood and sturdy muscles. It sounded vaguely muffled and underwater. But so very real, and so much closer.

I've never felt more alive, and in touch with my body that the moment when I got to hear my own heartbeat after that. That feeling is indescribably incredible!

I've always said that I wanted a tall guy for myself. The secret reason, I've been to embarrassed to admit is that I like to hear the person's heartbeat when I hug them. A long time back, every morning; as soon as I woke up, I would groggily walk to the kitchen. My mom would be there cooking, facing the stoves (obviously ;) ) And I would hug her from the back, for a minute or two, till I wanted to properly wake up. Most of my waking up memories are in the kitchen, rather than on the bed.
It was the perfect way to wake up... listening to her soft and steady heartbeat, engulfed in mommy smell.

At one point, I used to wonder why the symbol of the heart was so popular.
It was probably enthralled and awestruck people like me who made the heart oh-so-famous after listening to it close up. But you know what? I think it's worth it :P

Love with all my heart,
Yours truly :)

Saturday, August 10, 2013


  1. Shoe rack ( With a capacity of at least 100 pairs)
  2. Red shoes
  3. A home I can furnish with Wooden Furniture (New brand obsession: Urban Furniture)
  4. A certain scar to disappear from my face
  5. Less clutter (I'm going to leave that open ended ;) )
  6. More time for myself each day
  7. More mind space
  8. A vacation to some place gorgeous
  9. My car.... and to be able to drive it ;P
  10. Happiness for everyone :)

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

It was once mine too

Somebody gifted something to me
Someone then took it away
I shrugged and thought; what the hell
No big deal
I would probably never be able to use it again anyway
Yet now, occasionally
As I see it lying around
I remember the times it when it was once mine
And ... am glad that there are just a few small regrets
With no pain

Saturday, August 3, 2013


Sometimes, we don't get second chances when it matters the most
Sometimes, you don't know if letting go is the best thing to do, even if that's the only option available to you
Sometimes, when you think you have finally gotten used to something, something small happens, and you realize you are exactly where you were not supposed to be anymore
Sometimes, small things like a car leaving the campus can be an important moment in someone's life
Sometimes, you want something to happen- as much as you dread it
Sometimes, I wish life were simpler, emotions less complicated to deal with and people a constant
Sometimes, the regrets come too late. Because realizations have a knack of sneaking up on you when you least expect it
Sometimes, trying to be over prepared makes you a nervous wreck
Sometimes, you contribute to a lot of happiness in someone else's day - even when yours in crappy- but that makes your day a bit brighter.
Sometimes, I wish I could curl up and wake up when the world makes it's mind up
Sometimes, I wonder how on earth I ever ever thought growing up would be an easy and fun thing to do - and even wanted it for myself
Sometimes, silence speaks more than words can ever do. But the welling tears spoil those moments
Sometimes, when everything sounds too perfect - it's probably about to go horribly wrong
Sometimes, just after the light goes off, the world feels darker than it really is.
And sometimes, adjusting to the darkness, while waiting for the light to come back on can take longer than you think it would.