Showing posts from September, 2011

Piggy Back ride :)

Do you remember when we were kids, and tiny?
We got rides off all kids of things, trolleys, push carts, boxes! and the best of the lot, piggy backs of our parents and grandparents. It looks cute, and I'm sure awesome fun!
Somehow (I wonder if I'm getting too old!) I don't remember those days too well. Just very vague flashes.

You know how everyone has this perfect-romantic-moment-dream? Mine's been walking hand in hand along the beach, pants folded up, and then being swept away, literally.
Lately, there's been another. (Yes, I admit it, it's thanks to the many Korean dramas I've been watching) Its to be carried piggy back. This is not so much for the romance like the other. A piggy back ride, to me, is something that depicts how much someone cares. To actually carry !! :)

The last time I was offered one, I declined, because I was way too sleepy. (And regretted it for a very long time :P )

Today, For the first time (in my memory) I got a piggy back ride :D

Tiny Little Things

I'm not fond of the cold. Air conditioning at 30 degrees has me shivering at office.
My team mate, with whom I share a cabin, is one of those characters who wonders if the temperature can be further reduced from 16 (the lowest). Nevertheless, he's always sweet enough to let the temperature remain at 30 degrees.
Still, I grab the opportunity, every time he steps out, to quickly turn off the AC.
And make sure I switch it on when he gets back.

Its for this reason that we take breaks at different times. So he can have the temp. at 16 when I'm not there, and I can be happy with AC turned off when he's not there.

There are those rare rare moments, when I come back from a break to find the AC switched off.
Times when he probably forgot to turn it on. It makes so happy to enter the cabin when it's so nice and perfect. Lingering cold, with no freeze factor.

When this happens, I quietly, almost reverently tip toe to my seat.
From then on, I move slowly. Careful not to alert …

Ten Thousand Fireflies ^.^

Ok, I'm all happy happy now.
And yup slightly jobless too.

I just wanna go fill some place with happy.
Or may be just .. balloons, petals, flowers, streamers, confetti... anything that spells happy.

So I thought I'll come here and list a few things that absolutely thrill me :D

1. Kiddy pools.
    I LOVE water. I probably was a water animal last birth. But I dunno how to swim :P So kiddy pools , wave pools water falls pool, shallow ponds, lakes and streams have me grinning like a 5 year old with too much candy.

2. Chocolate
    Dark chocolate, slightly melted, licked off the wrapper.
Snickers. You've heard of rose tinted glasses? These bars of heaven are mine. Aaahhhh... the bliss within each crunchy bite :D

3. Chocolate ice cream
    With crushed nuts, chocolate brownie and chocolate sauce. Forget the world, just eat dark choc ice cream. Ferrero Rocher flavoured to make it all the better.

4. Drizzle
    Rain, lightning and Thunder. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!

5. Stat…


A month of discoveries and reconciliation.
I know I'm only half way through the month. But I made a lot of progress retrospection and introspection wise.
Very happy with myself :)
I even texted and emailed a few people I hadn't kept in touch with. OK, 2 people.  Still, big step for me ok !
Fireflies, the song is running through my head :)

At work, everything is goin haywire. Most around me look worried about whats going to happen. But I'm fine. Inner emotional state not bothered by such a big shake in stability. I've got back up plans. Again.  My 9 months of hermit living, with no aim, no back up plans, no dreams and goals are slowly wrapping up. I think by the end of 2011, I might have gone through a full round of mid life (early onset) crisis and self discovery.
Even if I don't, I'm just happy that I'm finally facing up to what I was denying ;)
(Told you so moment for many out there? ;) )
So now, I gotta go re build a few bridges I left abandoned and ponder over a f…

I figured it out

I figured it out.
Can't say I finally figured it out, because the realization struck almost out of the blue.
I'd been looking for answers of 2 big questions. Which became 4 last Saturday.
The 4th one, triggered by a very current event in my life... which kinda helped me piece together everything.
It was remarkable, the way it all fell into place.

If I had written this last Saturday night, I probably would have let you in on the secret.
But the dots connected, and the tears started flowing. It was haywire. It was crazy. It was one wet pillow.

One of those things, when I just wanted to scream, "No... can't be. I'm so in control of everything happening. I'm so clued in on me. So how could this sneak up on me?!"

Roughly 4.5 years ago, I'd made a decision.
It was a conscious decision.
But I didn't...hadn't realized for an entire four and a half years that I had been unconsciously acting on that decision.
How could I have not known?

Last Saturday ni…

Stand in the rain

When there's no shoulder to cry on
When there are no arms to fly into

When something ...sometimes everything
Doesn't make any sense

When your head feels too heavy
For your own shoulders

When you don't know
Which direction to take take
Or.... just don't know.

When the next breath
Seems like a big chore

When you don't know
If not crying is because
There is no pain
or because,
you've not let yourself feel it.

When everyone seems to know
Where they are going
Why, when and for whom
And you have not a clue
None whatsoever

Except maybe a distant dream
A dream so distant
That you're not sure
If it's an ooollllldddd dream
or a dream for the distant future

When you're just laughing at yourself
And tears are flowing down anyway

Stand in the rain
Close your eyes
Let your tears drain
Momentarily severe ties

Stand in the rain
Close your eyes
You're anywhere you want to be
With anyone you want to see
You're never alone in the rain
You're surrounded by …

Kimchi Smile :)

"Don't I know you from somewhere?"
Probably the cheesiest first liner right? That was the first thing we said to each other. I can remember it like yesterday, It feels like light years ago.
So much has passed in between So much we've grown
Long long ago, Back in those days, When we were still new to each other, Probably the first week I was sitting next to her, And she was at the edge of her seat Wishing desperately, that she was along the beach Stopping someone from jumping into the sea. Well, you can imagine what my first impression was It was plain: 0.o !!!!!!!!!
Then we got to know each other a bit better The next thing I remember about her is Tang. There's always tang when I go to her place. Funny thing to remember right?
The 2 years in between When I was away We kept touch in sporadically One would expect a little rift But it was was weird It wasn't that distance made the heart fonder It was the bridges we built that made us closer.

She forces me, and d…