Sudden realizations...

I know now for a fact that it never was, and never has been. I had just wanted it to be... which is not the same as it being. This is saddening though, not too much because it never was, rather because I couldn't tell the difference.

(10 mins ago, on CASTLE)
"How do you know if its love?"
"All the songs make sense"

I've only ever related the love songs that I've heard to her... I haven't been in love. And this, what I had till now is definitely nothing more than a crush, now I can't tell if I ever can love....