How are you ?
You sure ?
It's ok, I understand that life can be confusing ..complicated sometimes, but don't break your little head over it too much ok ...
I know sometimes you feel like everything is too much for you to deal with.
Like you'd rather curl up and sleep, and when this... thing is over, you could wake up with just the knowledge that it's all over. We both know that's not possible though.
But, there is a good thing, time does fly!
Remember everything you've waited for and before you know it, it's over. Those times, you felt sad, but now, the same thing is a good thing na :)
So, it looks like the time keeps stretching on forever, and you don't know how to deal with things, or you don't know how you would react to what might happen.
More basically, you just don't know what would happen.
You didn't like one small thing, and in retrospect, it looks like there were many things that were possibly screaming at you, but you didn't notice, till ... now. Is now too late? It might seems so honey, but it's not. In a year's time, you may not even remember any of this. You will remember the bigger deal, but the finer aspects would have been long forgotten ...
The human memory is like a sieve, it retains only what it wants to retain, and even those, only if it is big enough not to get filtered away.
I know.. I know ... You feel like putting your head in your hands and just ... just pretend things away. But life can't be pretended away baby doll, we already learnt that the hard way, no matter how much we might want it to.
So sugar, you just wait it out. Most of the things in life, which you really wanted, so much that you could see yourself there, always happened. This just might "MIGHT" be one of those.
Don't get your hopes high sugar, but don't let go either, give it some time. Try practicing your patience, we haven't done that in a while now have we, maybe God just wants you to do that.
In the end, no matter what happens, you would have learnt from the experience, and ...I'm always, ALWAYS there for you !
I love you !