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I love you ... but ....

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I was watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S today, season 1, The one with the candy hearts.
Ross and his ex wife meet at a restaurant, and luckily or unluckily end up being seated together. The laugh and chat, and enjoy each others company. All good things come to an end, so did their time together. When its almost time to leave, Ross holds on to her and tells her he still loves her, it was so ... easy being with her. She also tells him that she loves him...but , there's someone else now, and she's at a different phase of life ...
There are 2 aspects to what is mentioned in the first paragraph. 
Comfort zones ... knowing that something isn't right for you, still, you are used to being there, so you'd rather continue being there than trying out other new stuff. Constraints in a relationship... simply explained by all the reasons you could give to complete "I love you...but ...." when thinking about any relationship.

Its like there's one circle close to us, inside which we are…

The light that once was ...

Memories twirling in my brain... Like the smoke after the fire in the candle is blown away, Memories are the only the things that are here to stay. Of the light that once was
I caught myself looking at the ash grey sky, the way it has been for days now, and wishing things got better. A cynical laughter crept up my throat ... One I never let out. I loved rainy days at home. All the elements were vibrantly alive... The water, the earth and the trees She was more alive than any of those But not anymore... As every new rainy day starts,  I hope it stops... before it pushes me too far
Rain cleans ... Rain replaces ... Rain renews. What if I want somethings to stay What if I wanted something to stay so bad ... It rained that night ... I can never forget
She loved it. I think I love it .. No ... I know I love it. But the rain can bring to life only certain elements And sometimes, even all that beauty Can't make up for the longing  Can't make up for the wish that I wasn't watching this alone Can't make up…

Rainy days are back again ...

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Its raining again :)
I love it ! Its green, water everywhere, and the rain ain't hard most of the time :D Cool or what ?! This is gonna be long, so those who wanna escape, this is your exit. All ye other brave souls, I'm proud of you :P It first started raining last Sunday afternoon-ish. (Today's Tuesdaybtw) We had an exam in the morning. That was done, and the next exam wasn't around for a week, so I was feeling very liberated, like most others there :) It started off as a gentle drizzle around 12 ... we had lunch ... I ran home and got my umbrella so I could bring my roomie her umbrella and bring mine to drop ( a very differently opinionated - about rain) my bro at his place. That of course, was my excuse for getting to walk in the rain :P The umbrellas were brought, and the social service started around the same time. After taking at least ten people back and forth, each time telling myself I'm a very good girl, with so much of social responsibility, but each time hearin…

Shadows on the wall

I always used to see faces in most of the shadows, back when I stayed at home ... toss some clothes on a line, and if there's a shadow it makes, there was always a face hidden there. My theory was, they are playing with us, and need to be found. Lion and Mr. Beard Man were most common, though Mr. Beard Man had a habit of regularly changing the length of his beard. One day it was very long, next day, a close shave and the third day it was long again (I wonder how he did that o.0) I used to talk to them, make stories about them, try to gauge their emotions. Yup they kept me entertained well, I must say ! After I shifted to where I am now, I lost touch with them. Every activity has become a chore and somewhere along the line, the fun was lost.  After a long long time, I saw her. A shadow lady, a clear and distinctive shadow lady. [A clear and distinct image is one that doesn't change or disappear as we go farther away or go closer to it. (My defi) ] I realized how much I missed such sma…

Letting go ....

Have you ever loved something... a lot, but there comes a point where you have to make a choice between holding on or letting go to find out if that something loved you enough to come back ... ?People always say, you must've heard it at least once ... "If you love something enough, let it go, if it was meant to be, he or she will come back to you" ... Easier said than done, trust me. Letting go ain't that easy ... there's a lot you put into each relationship... love is the foundation and the basic, I know, but there is hope, trust, a sense of security, being there for the other are some main ingredients.  Every relationship is like cooking your meal for two every day, you put in all this, so its the perfect mix and work on it, but tell me, what happens when one or a few ingredients is suddenly missing, or one person loses interest in one of the ingredients ... the flavour is lost. Forever ?
Is it easier to hold on or to let go and give it time.
You know whats worse t…

Blue

A word that has been a lot in my mind for sometime now ....
Its one of my favourite colours .... the sky, water, ...
I'm gonna talk only about the blue of the sky for sometime ... the pleasant blue when it windy ... soft, inviting you to take a nap out on the grass.
The really bright blue of a bright and sunny day. Not really inviting to stay outside, but you still think "wow" when you look at the brilliant blue ...
Then the blueish grey that signifies rain coming ... some like it, some hate it, some are indifferent, the reaction is too close to the liking or hating of rain. The colour though is like the calm before the storm (literally). Looks very calm, composed and you know the worst is coming.
The rain sky is more of just grey, so I'm leaving it out.
Next is the blue thats immediately after rain, the sky clearing, the cool air and the most cheerfullest of them all, feels like its winking at us, saying "Hiya, I'm back :P ". Just thinking about it makes me …

Yello !!!!!!!

Heya guys !!For those who didn't know, James Marsden says "Hello" like that in 27 dresses, and yes girls he does look gorgeous :P
I think that statement amazingly represents the theme of this post. I was just talking to this intellectually deep minded friend of mine, trying to explain to him why I didn't really want to market this blog though I love this place ... then there were so many reasons ... or rather it was such a nice feeling, I wanted to share it.
This is more like a place for me, where I can be myself ... In here I feel like a fairy queen with freedom. Don't roll your eyes :P  When I started it was more because I didn't want to write, like with a pen and paper ... then now I have these few people who read my blog regularly and comment on my posts. I must thank -n-, though I have no idea who he or she is ! But I know -n-'s blog is really nice !
Another aspect, which is my favourite part is the complete freedom here... I always thought if I had too …

C'est moi :)

This is one of the personality predictions made based on Birth Dates ..., this is mine, In case you believe these things and wanna know more about me. It sounds pretty cool, kinda true, but most of it fits almost everyone right ?! :P 

IF you were born on the 1st, 10th19th28th of any month you are number 1. 

Number 1 
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies on a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.. If you are guy you will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in…